Balance

My life has always had a crazy flavor to it...however lately there seems to be a little extra, or a lot extra? Over this month I have been out of town a couple of times and plan to be out of town one more time yet. I feel as though I am juggling much more than I ever have before. I feel that my professional life is going well yet, somehow I feel like I'm losing my grip on my personal life. But then again anytime my personal life is going well my professional life lacks. So many times I feel like I have the perfect balance, and then something gets all out of whack? I don't ever see it coming and I don't understand why I can't see it coming. I mean I should, shouldn't I? You would think that I would feel pressure somewhere or catch something about to go wrong. Nope it just happens and I feel like a total victim.
How do you accomplish having a happy personal life, and a flourishing ministry? Before I got into this position I would have thought that your life had to be the ministry and in many ways I still believe that to be true, but I am not Jesus who constantly moved about His life as God. I am just a single gal...I can't imagine the balance that is required for a wife or mother? I know that the key is to rest in the strength of the Holy Spirit, but when your life is go go go its hard to see where you are resting and where you are not being a good steward. One thing that I can say is that in life there have only been a couple times where I have felt the peace that I do right now in my life. I know that I am where God wants me to be, and doing what He wants me to be doing. I am happy, I guess I just desire to control too much. I bet there really is no such thing as "balance" in life or in ministry, I imagine its different for everyone and different for every season in life.